Just breathe…

It has been a long, long time since I posted anything here.  It isn’t for lack of ideas.  For some reason, I just couldn’t bring myself to write anything.  That extends past the blog to my novel-in-progress.  I have missed it terribly, but just couldn’t bring myself to do it.  Every time I tried, I felt like I’d been dipped in cement and asked to wade through quicksand.  It was no longer a joy but a chore and that broke my heart.

I spent more than one night crying myself to sleep because I was terrified that the magic, the spark, the “thing” that made me a writer was gone.  What is wrong with me?  For certainly something must be terribly wrong for me to turn away from what I loved so much.

The harder I tried, the more depressed and distraught I became.  Witnessing myself take what was not a simple detour from the path, but wandering so far away concerned me.  Something was going on and regardless of the outcome I needed to figure out what.

Anaar quote 1

Recently, a friend introduced me to T Thorne Coyle’s website.  Her work has made a difference in the lives of many people walking many paths.  One of the things I knew I needed to do was raise my vibration.  Although I was struggling, at least I wouldn’t bring myself down further than I was already.  I needed to continue to find my way back, even if it was an inch at a time.

In my travels through the YouTuberverse, I came upon a conversation between T Thorn Coyle and Anaar from 2013.  I wanted to share it here because I think it would benefit anyone who deals with the 9 to 5 world while trying to maintain their creativity/spirituality.


Anaar quote 2

Something clicked.  I was finally able to give myself permission to take a creative nap.  To allow myself the time that I need to recharge.  Once I released the fear and the sadness, I had a realization.  I spent a considerable amount of time pushing myself to write my submission for the “Dark Crystal” author quest.  Although I did not get the job, that does not negate the work that I did or the immense energy that I put toward the project.  I also had a sense of sadness because I wouldn’t be finishing the project.  I had all these ideas, this amazing story, and someone else pulled the plug.  So I suppose I had to mourn the loss.

Once I took some time to reflect on that, I realized it stands to reason that I would need to take a break.  That I may need to distance myself a bit so that I can refocus on my next project and move forward with that.

Interestingly enough, it seems that this “lightbulb moment” has also flipped a switch within me, freeing me up to write again.


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Queen of the Tearling

It was about a year ago that I discovered the world of the BookTuber.  They are typically in their late teens/early 20’s and primarily read YA fiction.  Their enthusiasm for literature is contagious and a dream come true for an author.

Something they often comment on is the covers of the books they are reviewing or posting as part of their TBR (to be read) list.  I knew that an eye catching cover was important, but this was a revelation for me.  To see their disappointment (which ranged from annoyance to outright anger) over a series changing the style of a cover mid-way through was especially interesting.

One of the BookTubers on my list is Cozy Tea Reads.  Last weekend, I realized I hadn’t seen any of her videos in a while, so I decided to bingewatch.  It was at the 5:30 mark of her “July Book Haul + Giveaway” that she said, “This next book that I have is one of the most beautiful books I have laid my hands on in a very long time.”  

Then she held up her copy of “The Queen of the Tearling” by Erika Johansen and I felt myself gasp.  She went on to say, “I can’t stop looking at it.  It’s stunning!”


She’s absolutely right. 

I have an e-reader and a limited book-buying budget, so if I see a book I want I typically go that route.  But then there are books that I want in the “traditional” format because they are simply far too beautiful and I need physical evidence of their existence.  This is one of them.

The photo doesn’t do it justice because it’s not only the cover but the spine and the map inside that make this book so gorgeous.  So definitely go watch Cozy Tea Reads video so you can see for yourself.  Something else that sold me on this book (as if the cover wasn’t enough) is that Emma Watson is involved of the making of the film adaptation.

Queen of the Tearling - Emma W

Is “The Queen of the Tearling” on your TBR list?  Have you ever seen a cover and simply HAD to have the book?


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When Autumn Leaves

I was chatting with a gal and (as often happens) the topic turned to books.  She asked if I had read “When Autumn Leaves” by Amy Foster.  I hadn’t, so she kindly offered to loan it to me.


Here’s a bit of the synopsis :

“In the picturesque Pacific coast town of Avening, it’s hard not to believe in magic. This is a town where the shoes in the window always fit, where you can buy a love potion at the corner shop, and where local lore seamlessly mixes with the supernatural.”

The story centres around Autumn, a local shop keeper and member of the Jaen Sisterhood.  She has received word that the time has come for her to move on and time to choose her successor.  But  who among the women of the town will be up to the task?

She soon compiles a list of 13, each of whom has their own special brand of magic.  The stories of each of the 13 intertwine far more than any of them are aware (or willing to admit).  Soon we find ourselves being taken on a journey as we get to know each of the candidates and soon realize that Autumn’s choice is going to be next to impossible.

I don’t want to say much more, for fear of posting spoilers.  If you are looking for an “Autumn-themed” book to read and considering we’re just days away from Samhain/Halloween/All Hallows Eve, this is a good choice.

If memory serves, this book took me three nights to finish.  I loved it so much, I immediately bought a copy for myself and another for a friend.  “When Autumn Leaves” has taken a place on my re-read shelf and I look forward to revisiting Avening very soon.

Do you have any suggestions for an “Autumn-themed” read?  Would love to hear from you!

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Octopus Wisdom

I was heading out for brunch with my parents and as I was driving down the highway, I thought about whether or not to post a reading today.  This card appeared in my mind’s eye, so I decided to see what it had to tell us.

Octopus - Reading Oct 19

This Octopus card comes from Susie Green’s “Animal Messages” deck.  

It says “Travel across Earth and over sea to securely embrace your dream.”


When I look at the card, multitasking immediately comes to mind.  When we wish to manifest something in our lives, there is always work to be done.   Clear out the clutter, organize our thoughts, create lists, prioritize tasks, take classes, release negative thought patterns, put ourselves in situations where we can make the appropriate contacts.  It may seem as though our hands are full, both figuratively and literally.

Susie Green writes, “Octopus does not wait for fate to deliver her dinner of crab, employing whatever strategy necessary for his capture, even abandoning water for earth’s air.  She councils that you, too follow your dream.  If your partner has left for a faraway land, join them;  if a new exciting possibility calls from distant climes, embrace it as firmly as Octopus does crab.  If others obstruct you, like Octopus eclipse your actions in an inky cloak until your dream is securely in your grasp.”

Even the Octopus has limits.  It only has 8 arms.  Some even lose a limb or two along the way.  But they carry on because they have no choice, if they are to achieve their goal.  You must also recognize that, no matter how amazing you are at multitasking, there will be certain things you need to let go of in order to bring closer that which will help you attain your goal and realize your dreams.

Keep pure your highest ideal.  Let nothing stop you, nor turn you aside.

I don’t know who wrote this but I read it over 20 years ago and it’s the best advice anyone can offer you.  There will be what I call “Dream Squishers” out there that seem to enjoy seeking out people’s dreams only to try and snuff them out with an inappropriate (or sometimes cruel) comment.  They will go so far as to LIE to you in order to steer you away from what you really want because they’re too afraid to dream.  If you have a Dream Squisher in your life, you don’t have to sever ties (although that is an option) but my advice is to keep your dreams to yourself.  Definitely express them among like-minded people who can help you get where your going, but if you encounter one of these human hobgoblins, steer clear and keep your thoughts to yourself.  When all else fails, smile and nod, then change the subject.

What do you see when you look at the Octopus?  What messages does she have for you?  Feel free to share, if you’re comfortable doing so.  Remember, there is no “right” or “wrong”, so have fun with it!


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I meant to post this at least a week ago…

I have a couple of blog posts that I have been meaning to write.  I need to do some research on Elves.  My suitcases still aren’t fully unpacked.  There’s a basket full of laundry downstairs that is probably wrinkled to the point everything will have to be washed again.

Countless blogs are written about writers who procrastinate and what we can do about it.  But the question on my mind is WHY do I do it?  Most of the things on my overwhelming “to do” list would take less than 30 minutes.  Remember my basement?  I put off that project for YEARS.  Literally.  Once I rolled up my sleeves and dug in, it took me about two weeks. I could use the excuse that it was a huge undertaking, but when I take a step back and look at the situation as an outsider, I seem to have an excuse for every task I’ve been putting off.

Every single time I finally finish something, I am surprised by how little time and effort it took.  Every single time I ask the same question.  Why did I put that off for so long?

I am not a lazy person, so this upsets me.  It’s so out of character and yet I do it all the time so I suppose it isn’t, which gives me pause.  It’s been bothering me for quite a while, yet I’ve actually even procrastinated the process of sitting with the feelings with the hope I can get to the root of the problem.

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No Procrastination !

The Universe has a way of forcing your hand.  I put off renewing my vehicle registration to the point where I actually forgot about it.  A couple weeks ago, I went out to visit a friend and parked my car in what turned out to be a “no parking” zone.  That little mistake, compounded with my lack of registration, cost me a few hundred dollars in fines.  An expensive lesson and hopefully I’ve finally changed my ways.  Every time I catch myself procrastinating, I stop and ask myself why.  9 times out of 10, I can’t find a reason so I just do whatever it is that I was trying to avoid.  “Eat that frog!”, as they say.

Is there anything you’ve been putting off?  What’s the longest amount of time you’ve procrastinated?

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The Celtic New Year is upon us!

I am a Pagan and follow a Celtic-based path.  It always seemed odd to me to celebrate New Year’s Eve in the middle of winter.  After I started studying Paganism, I understood why.  The Celtic New Year, or Samhain is November 1, which means that  Halloween, or “All Hallows Eve” is October 31.  Once I started following the Celtic Wheel of the Year and celebrating the changing of the seasons, December 31 ceased to have much meaning to me.

We find ourselves just three weeks away from Samhain.  A time to pay homage to those who have gone before and to sit in reflection of the year past and to not only set goals for the year to come, but make note of the adjustments needed in order to see those goals to fruition.

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One way to do that is a “Wheel of the Year” reading.  You draw a card to represent each month, starting with November and making your way around the Wheel to October of next year.  Then you examine not only each card individually, but how the cards relate to each other.  Soon, you will see a pattern and perhaps gain clarity with regard to what needs to be released, what direction you should take, what goals you should set for yourself, and perhaps even confirmation that you are indeed exactly where you are meant to be right now.

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I have been guided to offer a free Wheel of the Year reading.  I have several decks and typically listen to my intuition with regard to which one to use.  Or I am sometimes drawn to use more than one.  I will draw a card for each month, offering you both the meaning of the card and any messages I receive, as well as how the cards are interacting with each other.  I also like to recommend a crystal or crystals to help you with whatever messages come through.  I will e-mail you photos of the layout, as well as all of the notes I take during the reading.  The process typically takes about 2 hours.

Wheel of the Year reading

Just comment below if this is of interest.  I will use one of those fancy schmancy computer generators to pick a number and then post the winner’s name on Sunday, October 19th.

Thank you for stopping by!  I look forward to hearing from you.


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Oh No !

Yesterday, I had this overwhelming need to surround myself with aquamarine.  Interestingly enough, it is my birthstone and for the longest time I felt like I was given the short end of the stick.  It’s not a very glamorous stone.  In fact, I found it rather boring.  Then, suddenly everything changed.  I let go of the resentment and started seeing the beauty in it.  The more I worked with it, the more I wanted to work with it.

I was going to go do a little shopping but kept getting a “no”.  So I sat with the feeling a bit.  Then I remembered that I bought a bag of raw aquamarine a while back, which was sitting in a bird feeder in my healing room.  I went in with the intention of taking a piece to sit with.  That’s when I noticed the dust.  I gathered it up and washed it in warm water, setting it on a towel to dry.  I went through the pieces, admiring them and was struck by how beautiful they were.  I was inspired to create a new arrangement and to add three pieces of smoky quartz.

Aquamarine Faerie

 I felt so strongly about the crystals that I felt there must be a message there.  I was guided to draw a single card today and imagine my surprise when this fella showed up!


Reading for the Blog - Sept 21 Oh No!


He is a trickster, so proceed with caution.  Keep your wits about you and your heart open.  Oh No has been waiting a long time to meet you and he’s ready to get to work.  His job?  Shaking things up a bit.  Shoving you out of your comfort zone.  Waking you up.

If you don’t stir the pot, things will end up stuck to the bottom and who wants that?  Sometimes things happen in life that aren’t what you wanted and certainly aren’t what you expect.  You can be stubborn and think the world is against you or you can see the blessing in every situation.  That’s when doors start to open.

Everyone who knows me has heard me say that my goal was to build a home on Miscou Island.  I would go on and on about how I couldn’t wait to move there.  But I didn’t do much to make that happen.  Every year I would tell myself that I would go there for a holiday and every year, I just couldn’t make it work.  Instead of asking myself where the obstacle was, I became resentful and sad.

When I told my sister it looked like I wasn’t going for yet another year, she suggested a trip to Victoria.  I hummed and hawed and was less than enthusiastic.  To be blunt, I was resistant and stubborn.  She went on to say it wouldn’t be that expensive and that it was so beautiful there.  I pondered for a while and then said it sounded good but that I wasn’t comfortable travelling alone.  More resistance and excuses.

“I’ll go with you.”

I couldn’t exactly argue with that.  We set a date, bought our tickets, booked the hotel and whale watching tour.  Then we started researching and it turned into quite an exciting adventure!  I was not in any way prepared to fall hopelessly in love with BC.  So much so that I have decided to make my home there.  It’s a three year plan, but it is a plan all the same.  I will write a more detailed blog post about my trip soon, but for now I wanted to share this shift in my thinking to illustrate how things can happen out of the blue that you weren’t planning and certainly weren’t expecting.  How a seemingly innocent suggestion that I visit a place that I’d never been and hadn’t considered could change the course of my life so dramatically.

Oh No had foiled my plans to go to New Brunswick because I was supposed to go to BC!

So when Oh No turns up, just go with the flow.  Sometimes it can get a little messy.  That just means it’s time to roll up your sleeves and get to work.  Sometimes it can be rather abrupt.  That is just a sign that your attention is needed elsewhere.

Aquamarine is a stone of courage and was often given to sailors for protection.  It is sometimes referred to as “Mermaid Stone”.  It is also believed to counteract the forces of darkness, carrying the protection and love of the spirits of light.

Smoky Quartz helps raise your vibration, release what no longer serves, and offers you protection.  It will also help you make contact with like-minded people who can help you on your journey.

Oh No is here.  Are we paying attention?  Are we going to get to work so he doesn’t have to?  When something happens that is unexpected or not according to plan, take a moment and ask yourself “What’s REALLY going on here?  What am I missing?  What is the message?”  You may just find yourself on a path you didn’t even know existed.

Have you experienced a major course correction lately?  Was there ever a time when something took you by surprise and you realized that you were looking at a new direction you hadn’t even considered?  I look forward to you feedback and hope you have an amazing week!


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